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For My Gain and Not For My Expense: God Is Writing My Story

God holds it all together. Me, you, humanity, and everything under heaven. It’s hard to remember sometimes. This pandemic has shifted everything. Even in my life, I felt the pandemic messed up plans, hopes, and dreams. In my life, things have been delayed for whatever reason, even before the pandemic.

It’s hard sometimes. I feel like God has put me through the ringer. I had such plans for my life when I was a 17 year old high school graduate…boy, was I wrong…

But even in the disappointments and uncertainty, I held on to God. Now, I was not happy all the time. I still struggle today. It is hard to see friends and colleagues succeed while I was/am stuck. It is hard seeing the social media shimmer and shine while I am just trying to function and not have a meltdown. But I have to keep going. To stop living life is to lose. I was literally moving by faith hoping for God to change the circumstance in the valley. I have moments of mourning and anxiety when things go wrong. It just hurts. But like Job, I will not denounce God…I just try my best to live for Him.

I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord  in the land of the living.-Psalm 26:13

Here comes this song by Maverick City Music-You Hold It All Together. The lyrics are so real. God always comes at the right time. God is still writing my story. Yes, my chapters are different from everyone else but that does not mean God is not working.

I know that God has good in store for me. I do get anxious. However, I know that my life is in His hands. He holds it together. God’s plan is for my gain and His Glory, not to my detriment nor expense.

Bliss Fam, we all carry so much but God still has a plan. Don’t give up. God is holding this crazy thing called life together. He loves us even when life is hard.

My favorite lyric is: God of my present, God of my future, You write my story, You hold it all together

He was always there, He is still there, and He will always be there.

Hang in there, Bliss Fam. God is still writing mine and our story.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Posted in A Word from Mama B!, Life as Bianca

The 30 Year Audit

I am experiencing a harvest that I did not expect.

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Year 30 has been an interesting start to a new decade of living. Last year, I turned a new age at the height of the pandemic. I was in an identity-crisis like everyone else, just trying to navigate life and figure out, “What am I going to do?” I thought that it would be fruitless to be honest. I thought that I would be in waiting for a harvest. But you know what? I was yielding a harvest I did not realize. I was growing, changing, and evolving.

Mental health was a defining moment for Year 30. Going to therapy was a BIG STEP in my growth process. To divulge hurts, disappointments, and traumas that I knew or did not realize that I kept in. I LOVE MY THERAPIST. I do believe God hand-picked her for me: a black Christian therapist. She has been a great, guiding facilitator in my growth and development. I do feel a sense of ownership in my narrative.

Knowing my worth is a lesson in all facets of my life. I made very big decisions to walk away because I realized that I deserved more. I did not deserve to be ostracized, criticized, nor belittled for who I am. I can eliminate the situation or the person. I don’t need to feel bad at all for protecting my soul. My worth is defined by God in every facet of my life as a black, Haiti-American Christian. So I can hire and fire people and situations accordingly.

My story is worth telling. During the pandemic was the height of racial tension and reckoning. I had two choices: hide and destroy myself internally or be about change and open myself up. It was hard to be honest, sharing racial traumas in my life. I had people reach out because they honestly thought I was fine but I was just trying to survive. Yes, people gave me flack and tried to explain away my experiences but I stood in my truth. I had to let go and it felt good in the end because I had real dialogues with people about race and gave people perspective. My hope was to make people think.. and I believe I did that.

I am curating my quality tribe. I have had great people come in my life in Year 30. Quality, salt of the earth people. I am learning to ask for help and prayer. Not just be a friend to someone but allow my friends to be my friend (or at least rise to the occasion). I am quite stubborn with friendships; I give all of myself but I don’t allow people to do the same. But I am trying to be better. Not everyone who is my friend on social media is my friend. There are levels of “friendship” but then there is my tribe and village. That is special to me and I am curating that. They know who they are. I feel loved and supported by them. It’s pretty awesome.

My life has teachable moments for others. Alongside my story is worth telling, my story is worth helping others. I guess I am old enough to give wisdom. God has given me opportunities to invest in the future generations. Young adults and kids are listening and looking up to me for advice and guidance. I was once in their shoes so it is amazing how God can use “little old me” to show me how far He has brought me.

***BONUS***– Back pain is real in your 30s. Like I have to give myself a moment to prepare my body to wake up. My body is changing I guess.

That is my 30 Year Audit. It’s been a great start so we will see where it goes in Year 31.

Blissfully,

Bianca

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Believe With Bianca: Preach Truth & Be Still

We can all be our worst critic…I am preaching to the choir on this. A deep realization of growth is learning to preach truth to myself and be still. For me, it is staying in God’s Word, the real truth that speaks life.

But, I’m not gonna lie…sometimes I read Scripture and there is no spark or burning bush revelation. Yes, the Bible is God-breathed and active (2 Timothy 3:16). But God’s instruction may cause different responses. Yes, I get conviction and truth but lately, I have been still in His truth and put a verse(s) in my Christian tool box.

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;-Psalm 46:10a

I have been learning to take in scripture and really marinate on a specific truth in my life. I just need to be still. My mind just races constantly about the future. Will life fall into place with my career, with friendships, with a romantic relationship, marriage, children, etc? I almost give myself headaches and anxiety just thinking about an unknown future.

But I am learning to be still. Easier said than done. I remind myself not to worry for what will it add to my life?(Matthew 6:27). Absolutely nothing. The Enemy is trying me but I feel greater is coming…that’s why he is working so hard.

A passage that causes me to be still and preach to myself is: being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.-Philippians 1:6

I am choosing to be still and preach currently: God completes what He starts. So God is not done with me and the things that worry me will be completed in Jesus’ name and timing.

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What do you need to be still and preach truth to yourself about?

Blissfully,

Bianca

Posted in Believe with Bianca

Dancing with Thankfulness

As long as you are living and breathing,

Do a little caper.

Whether it’s a little jig or a full out dance party.

God has given you new mercies.

God has given you grace.

God has given you purpose.

Caper

Blissfully,

Bianca

Posted in A Breath of Fresh Air

Relying On the His Breath of Fresh Air

Living and being independent can cause me to lose sight of relying on God.  The Great I Am requires obedience and reliance on His abilities alone. Easier said than done. My abilities are based on reliance on God, not my own human merit.

I am learning that I am not in control. It is savage to think I can save myself and function without God….because I can’t (and you can’t either). It takes daily death to self to attain more reliance on Him.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.-Proverbs 3:5-8

I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.-Proverbs 16:8-9

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.-Psalm 121:1-2
Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.-Proverbs 19:21
Blissfully,
Bianca
Posted in A Breath of Fresh Air

Freed From His Fresh Air

Hi All!!

It is 4th of July weekend: Fireworks, Barbecue, Red, White, and Blue everywhere, Flags, “God Bless America.” Yes, there are people who fought for freedom but not everyone receives freedom at the same time. There are various people groups who still struggle for freedom in 2017. But the beautiful thing is Jesus already established freedom for all 2,000 years ago. Anyone who is in Christ is FREE!!!  We can scamper with the assurance of the freedom of Jesus. Yes, we still live in a fallen world but we have a hope and a future…and freedom.

Justice and Freedom will be in Heaven with the Giver of Freedom. I leave you with Scripture of Freedom:

2 Corinthians 3:17-Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.

Hebrews 12:1-2-Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,  fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

John 8:36-So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

Galatians 5:13-14-You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love. For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.”

Galatians 5:1-It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.

Ephesians 3:12-In him and through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence.

Scamper

Blissfully,

Bianca

Posted in Life as Bianca

My Blissful, Sunny Birthday!!!

A sunny, new horizon has risen because God has granted me another year of life. It’s my Birthday!!!  I am officially 27 years old.

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It feels great and scary but God has fulfilled, continues to fulfill, and will fulfill His promises. 27 will be a life-changing year with graduation, bar prep, and who knows what is next. Thankful to still be here.

Never take a birthday for granted. Never take another day on Earth for granted. Each day is a sunny day when you open your eyes and you are still you, breathing, walking, and living.

Sunny

Blissfully,

Bianca

Posted in A Breath of Fresh Air

A Breath of Fresh Air Is Possible

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God has blessed me so far with 26 years of triumphs and challenges, setbacks and comebacks, and  cringe-worthy and life-defining moments. I cannot say “I DID THIS,.” All that has happened is by the grace and divine providence of God.

The Enemy tries to make situations impossible. He fights hard when he knows a breakthrough is coming. Keep going with God as your compass and foundation. Life is possible because of Jesus Christ. Every day is not easy but with God all things are possible.

I encourage you with this scripture for each season of life and for each day. Life is possible.

Cringe

Blissfully,

Bianca

Posted in Believe with Bianca

An Illusion is Not What It Seems

 

Your dreams may seem like an illusion.

It may seem like they are a delusion to the world.

 

Jesus is not saying “No”

He is saying “Not Now” or “I have something better”

 

I know the feeling of an illusion sounding more like a delusion.

But don’t give up.

God goes before you.

He is directing your steps.

Your purpose is not an illusion.

God’s preparing the venue, solution, resolution, and conclusion. 

 

Illusion

 

Blissfully,

Bianca

Posted in A Breath of Fresh Air

A Breath of the Father’s Air

It is Father’s Day. For some, it is a great time to celebrate dads. For others, it’s a difficult day whether a father is in Heaven, non-existence, or just no where to be found. My father’s father and my mother’s father was absent and distant. And yet, the Heavenly Father loved them so much and carried them through life.

My Heavenly Father sent His only Son to die for you and me. No matter where you are, He loves you unconditionally. He will always be in your corner. He provides and sustains. He is everything and more. Even if you don’t have an earthly father, you do have a Heavenly Father who sits high and loves deeply.

One of my favorite hymns is “How Deep the Father’s Love For Us.”

How deep the Father’s love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the man upon a cross
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Blissfully,

Bianca