Life Before Future Lawyer Bianca

ПечатьFun Fact about me: I wanted to be a pharmacist but after Organic Chemistry, I realized that dream died. But prior to that realization, I had wanted to be lawyer since high school. My dad was against me being a lawyer because his perception of lawyers was “Lawyers lie and can’t be Christian” (weird but true).

My lawyer moment: I went to Haiti on a mission trip after the earthquake. A defining moment of the trip was when I encountered a young boy, about the age of twelve, who did not know how to write his own name. I do not think twice about writing my name because that is one of the first skills I learned in school. At that moment, I thought “How many more people in this world do not know how to write their own name?” I also wondered how many times illiterate people have been taken advantage of, due to a lack of knowledge of what has been written. When I wrote that twelve year old boy’s name on his nametag, he was elated to see his name in ink for the first time. This moment punctured my heart. It changed my outlook. I finally understood why my parents enforced education because there are people (like them) who did not have the same opportunities as me. I had a different worldview that day. From that moment forward, I realized that even the smallest thing, like one’s name, can make a difference and give a person more of an identity.

Since my biology degree was not going to happen, I knew wanted to make a difference, to reach people delegitimized by society. I took a career aptitude test and I lined up with “law-related fields” which brought me back to my original career choice: the law.

Then what happened next was a burning bush moment. After I had a meeting with a Career Services counselor, her secretary said, “A professor left some LSAT study materials and a book of law schools in the U.S.. Do you know anyone that would want them?” Yup…that was my sign. So that was the route I took.

My dad eventually had a change of heart. I changed my major to Political Science and started on the track to where I am now. I am in my last year of law school looking towards the future. I desire to be an immigration attorney, fighting for the people and kids like that young Haitian boy I encountered. I want to use my knowledge for good and for others.

So the moral of the story is: Defining moments can come from anywhere, including your past. Never give up. Keep growing.

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Blissfully,

Bianca

My Desires, His Order

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This may not seem like much but this was the hands of my Baptist Collegiate Ministry (BCM) team laying hands on my prayer requests. I was a different person in 2013. I was a Senior in college hoping to be a lawyer, wondering if I was good enough or plain crazy. My LSAT was low, rejection letters seemed to come more, and doubt set in. My sister was still living with Sickle Cell Anemia (no bone marrow transplant thoughts yet). Life was scary and uncertain. Yet in the mist of the doubt and uncertainty, my team rallied around me, traced their hands on my requests, and prayed for me.

Little did I know that my sister would have a successful bone marrow transplant a few years later

Little did I know I would be accepted to law school a year later

Little did I know that God was preparing the way for me to move to Jacksonville, Florida

Little did I know that God was doing immeasurably more than I could ask for

I just had to be patient. Even though I felt my path was out of order, God used my team and friends to pray for peace. God knew the order. He always knows the order.

I just had to pray and live by faith. My God is a God of order. All things work for His good.

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Blissfully,

Bianca

Who Is Bianca?

Hi Friends,

Don’t worry!! This is not a philosophy question, just a list of some facts about me.

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  1. I am a June baby…the 28th to be exact.
  2. I love painting.
  3. I am a big fan of Disney movies and James Bond movies
  4. My favorite colors are turquoise, mint green, yellow,  coral, pink..but I love to expand my horizons.
  5. I do not have a middle name.
  6. I collect mugs (all kinds from any place or whenever I visit a new place).
  7. Even though I reside in the South, I was born and raised in Stamford, Connecticut till I was 5.
  8. My cultural background is Haitian..and proud of it.
  9. I have really distinct, neat penmanship.
  10. I love doing crosswords and doing puzzles…”old person status”.

So this is ME!!..at least for the most part.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Summer Bucket List Life As Bianca

Hi Friends,

Summer is happening!! YAY!! It is my last summer as a student so I want to make it COUNT!

My Summer Bucket List:

  • Find a legal internship
  • Do pro-bono/volunteer work
  • Pass summer classes
  • Beach Day/Pool Day
  • Go to a Food Truck Event
  • Manicure/Pedicure Day
  • Buy a romper
  • Have a kick-but 27th birthday
  • Paint Day
  • Watch a Summer Movie
  • Try a new restaurant
  • Declutter my closet
  • Attend a cultural/artistic event
  • Have a Senior Photoshoot
  • Have lunch/coffee with someone I have not seen in a while
  • Watch Fireworks
  • Read Proverbs and Romans 

 

I encourage you to make summer list of things you want to do and experience. I made my list. I want to give you some advice on the process.

  1. Be practical. I will not have time to skydive this summer so yeah. But I plan things that I can do with the time I have.
  2. Mix it up. Include different activities or goals. You don’t have to be limited going out all the time. You can do stuff at home too.
  3. Go wild or go little on the list. Whether by quantity or quality of items, make your list for you.
  4. Get your family and friends involved. Why not have experiences with the people in your circle!?!
  5. Have fun!

So tell me what’s your summer bucket list.

Blissfully,

Bianca

The Adrift from Comfort

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The law school countdown is on for my December graduation. I reminisce on the past three years of my life. I left my comfortable life in Georgia for a new city chasing a dream. I set my life adrift with Christ as my anchor. I cast myself into the deep. My anchor never let me drift outside of God’s will. Though I strayed, I would find myself back to His direction. Sailing the seas, there were tides of difficulty, despair, and uncertainty but there were currents of joy, peace, friendship, and triumphs.  Adrift, to me, means letting go of human, tangible security and relying on God and self in the seas of life.

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Blissfully,

Bianca

On the Cusp of Greatness

So I had my last Barrister’s Ball (Law School Prom) this past weekend. I felt very beautiful….dare I say it, SEXY!! That is a word I am not really described as on a regular basis. But my mom made me realize something. She said you are a beautiful, smart, sexy woman. My mom said woman and I was taken back. I am a now a woman in my mother’s eyes. Crazy!!!IMG_1064

I am on the cusp of greatness. It is hard for me to picture that I am a woman called by the Creator to live a set-apart life in this day in age. Sometimes I still think I am an 18 year old trying to figure things out. I do not know if I could ever see this girl in the picture as me in the future. But look what God can do!! I am Me. I am really living out my dreams. I am a beautiful, smart, talented, sexy woman. I never would have expected my life to be the way it now. But God knew what He was doing. 

By December, I will be a law school graduate. By next February, I will have taken the Bar. After that, I do not know. Knowing that scares me. I am really on the cusp of what God put me on this Earth to do. Wow! What a concept!

I feel like I am climbing up the mountains of life. I know that the top is within reach. With every step I take, I am changing my view. I am seeing new horizons. I do fall on some valleys but I keep climbing. I do not know what the future holds but I do know my  greatness is because of the Greatest.

I am on the cusp of greatness.

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Blissfully,

Bianca

Life As Bold Bianca

You know what? I realize that Bianca now is very different from Bianca a few years ago.

I don’t know about you but I love people. I love to be liked by people.  For a time in my life, I would limit or downplay who I was to please people. I would seek approval from people. There were different me depending on who I was around. But that was then, this is now…

There is freedom being who God designed you to be. God designed me to be me. Once I realized that, then my boldness started even more. God has given me the opportunity to attend law school and experience different . My perspective is unique and not everyone will agree with what I believe. Sometimes I have to stand alone but that’s ok. I was not made for man’s approval, I was made for God’s glory.

Now, I find myself speaking my mind and posting about my perspective. Yes, people may disagree with me but I still present what I believe and find some common ground.

Being me also means eliminating negativity. Before, I would tolerate people’s behavior and take people’s negativity . I would find myself in a dark place because I allowed people to affect me.

Being me means I cannot keep giving so much of myself to people who do not care about me. I have experienced fruitless friendships because it was always a one way street. I don’t seek friends to gain something from them but there should be give and take.  I have had to learn to let people go.

I wish for you all is that you live to God’s glory, not man’s approval. Being bold means letting the excess go and standing firm. I’m learning as I go and I want you to learn with me.

Blissfully,

Bianca

Life As Bianca

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I can always count on my mom to be REAL with me. My mom told me how even though I say that I am done with someone, I still hold on to bits and pieces on them. I suppress feelings about them and yet, I am still friends with them on social media or still have some sort of connection with them. And yet I say “oh see what they said. I can’t stand them.” or “That is why we are not close anymore.”

I hesitate to let the people who hurt me go. I believe that part of me thinks that they will be better or I want to show them how awesome I am without them. I don’t know.

My mom said, “Do not hesitate on your happiness. Eliminate the toxic people and don’t look back. Temptation will happen if you do not cut every toxic thing.” 

It is something that I am still processing and learning as me. I am trying to Eliminate without Hesitation. Letting someone go takes a decision but also takes active steps to ensure your happiness. I am trying to do that now. I started truly letting people go.  So I will encourage you all with this: Do not hesitate on your happiness. Eliminate and do not hesitate. You deserve to be happy. Life is too short to deal with negativity and toxicity. 

Blissfully,

Bianca

Confessions of A Jiggling, Single Christian Lady

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So even though I am single (and have been for 26 years), I have tried to be a strong, independent, “I don’t need a man,” career girl who loves Jesus, her family, and her friends. I come up with many reasons why I am single and should be single. I wave my feminist flag. I wave the “Jesus is my boyfriend” flag. I wave my “I am woman. Here me roar” flag. Some days I feel great as a single person. But there are some days where I feel annoyed being single.

There are some days where the flags don’t do anything. There are days where the reasons why I am single don’t help. Even encouragement and empowerment from other women do not help. I find myself jiggling and being anxious. Will I find someone? I am just going to be alone like this? Why is there not at least a prospect? Is there something wrong with me?  Am I coming on too intense? Where did I go wrong?  My jiggling starts turning into an anxious earthquake of emotions.

I know what you are going to say.

  • Bianca, God is preparing you in this season for your husband.
  • Bianca, a relationship is just so much; believe me, you are better off single
  • Bianca, be content
  • Bianca, it’s ok to wait..
  • You are a great person, Bianca and God has someone especially made for you.
  • etc. etc. etc. blah blah

I have heard all of these  and then some. But I am being truthful. It is not easy to be single and not fool around. It is not easy when 99.9% of your friends are in relationships or married. It is not easy to see your social media filled with babies, boyfriends, engagement ring selfies, cute couples hashtags, etc. It is not easy where your once single lady alliance decreases because your single friends are finding love while you are STILL waiting.   It is not easy to be set apart with the world telling you to let your freak flag fly and experiment. It is not easy…

There are moments when Mama B has “jiggle moments.” My mind moves quick in thoughts of “Is my singlehood permanent?” “What is next besides graduation and work?” I believe it is a normal feeling to have but it should not be a feeling that overtakes and overwhelms.

So to my single friends (wherever you are), it’s ok to hurt and jiggle but don’t let your jiggling be an anxious natural disaster. Keep picking yourself up. We are gonna be just fine.

Blissfully,

Bianca

 

My Life In the Lush Garden

via Daily Prompt: Lush

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I feel that as I grow older, my lush garden of life is growing. I know that there are greener pastures ahead but I bask in my growing garden now.

The things that use to deter me and annoy me don’t. I have had and still have to sift out the dead weeds that choke my joy.

I have had flowers that I expected to bloom and did. I have had flowers that did not bloom. I have had flowers that I did not expect to bloom.

My lush garden of life is blooming. God continues to plant the seeds that bloom into my testimony.

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Blissfully,

Bianca